back at school, homesick already. 3000 miles away it doesnt seem that big of a deal anymore. im so irritable today : |
honestly, boys complicate everything. fuck that shit. why cant i just get drunk with my friends and not have to be worried about anything thats the most uncomfortable ive felt in a really long time. JUST. FRIENDS. somebody did NOT get the memo
getting judged for something you’re proud of sucks. just further vindicates my belief that i need to get teh fuck out of boston… fuck it all!! shouldve just went to art school
mmmm. i’m so irritated and bored with everything lately… do i just miss home? i dont love bc. i feel like i have wanderlust..
retreat was freaking awesome. despite the fact that i’m so sore walking up the stairs is painful, it was so fun and so lacking in sleep. now i know that my limit is 4 days and 7 hours of sleep haha. i went to bed at 7 last night and still almost overslept my 12. WHOOPS. small things kind of made the weekend :|, but really violent games fix it all!
winter is coming
i love the cloudy days. i love when the cold wind snaps at you as you leave the safety of the indoors, giving yourself to the icy intangible tendrils that sneaks its way through your clothing, wrapping you in a chilling embrace. when you speak, it steals the words from your mouth and tosses them into the air, never to be heard. the rain thunders and drowns out your thoughts, providing a steady...
so mon anniversaire was NOT that fun…people got way too drunk too fast (which i guess was a good thing) but i’m tired of having to take care of people. what else is new? all i wanted was for people to get drunk and dress up and be happy and have a good time…throwing up was expected but screaming and fighting was not. oh well. maybe next year. I MISS HOME.
2 days until my birthday!!! I love my birthday week. i love autumn :) also, i love wes. i miss those guys…wes especially, but there isnt really any chill spot that i feel like i can show up at any time whenever i want and love everybody in the room and have something fun going on at all times…legal or not. i feel like there are strings attached to everything this year. i love wes...
i love dubstep…i don’t know why i love creepy music so much. this mix is awesome. i should’ve known better than to fall for that stupid shit. he inflates my ego a couple times and i actually believe him when he falls that hard. i feel like the whole “my feelings are getting in the way” was just some ploy to get rid of me, and just as quickly he tossed me to the...
dance dance revolution
i can’t stop listening to bad romance and bulletproof. i want to get drunk and dance provocatively (or just expressively) with strangers i’m attracted to. i miss the human touch, i miss the conglomeration of love little boots, lady gaga, la roux. oh how your voices call me to the dancefloor.
Feeling pensive today. An NYU junior leapt off the 10th floor of the Bobst library today…When I walked past that library with Dustin, I’d laughed about how here at BC, we have a Bapst library. “Suicide is just a moment, Lexy told me. This is how she described it to me. For just a moment, it doesn’t matter that you’ve got people who love you and the sun is shining...